Me

So, when I decided I would have a family blog ( for those who are mainly interested in seeing cutesy pictures and videos of Isabela) AND a personal blog, I told myself that I would write very little about mommyhood.

But come on, that is impossible!

Simply because, I am a mom.

That is my identity now. Well, part of it. Ok, who are we kidding, most of it!

And, guess what? That is NOT a bad thing! It is rather indescribable, actually. I mean, of course, there are other parts of my ‘identity.’ There are other things that define the person I am.

Like,

I am a woman who loves her husband, who has this creative energy that threatens to destroy me if I do not utilize it, who seriously loves my crazy family, who loves God, who loves my daughter, who loves to sing, who is a stay at home mommy, who struggles with myself, guilt, forgiveness, love, perfection, and figuring out who this new mommy person (me) really is.

The truth is, that being a stay at home mom can be incredibly lonely. And guilt inspiring. And boring at times. But, to me, mostly lonely.

That’s because I love being around people. I love getting to know new people, learning about their lives and creating friendships. I get energy from people.

And now, I’m a stay at home mommy, and I’m rarely around people. So, I get lonely….with no one to talk to through out the day and a husband that works crazy hours. I’m not ashamed to admit it!

But then the other days make up for it! Watching my daughter conquer new milestones….if i was a working momma, I’d miss some of that stuff! Laying down with her, watching her attempt to read me books….man, my heart swells just thinking of it! Dancing around the house like crazy during our daily ‘ davila dance dance DANCE!’ hour ( yes thats my cheesy name for it), is hilarious. Playing hide and seek. Park time. cuddle time. I mean, its during times like this, where I’m thinking, ” Now, this is the life! Thank you Jesus, for giving me the blessing of being with my daughter all day, every day!”

And, I think, that is where the sensibility kicks in. Sure, I find myself glancing at job offers, wistfully imagining myself working again. And then, I look at my daughter and am floored.

Who am I kidding? I can never go back. I will never be who I used to be and I may never be able to return to the work force again….
Because, I’ve experienced the dream. Even though it really wasn’t my dream. And maybe still isn’t. But I’ve been there, and I’m still there, living it everyday. Lonely it is. Thankless it is.

Its the loneliest most thankless, most IMPORTANT job I’ve ever had – and it’s also the best, most rewarding, most fun, most relaxing, and the most FULFILLING job that I’ve ever had.

Its more than a job, it is a new life to cherish, a story that’s being written, memories that are being made, a whole new way to love and be loved…It is who I am now.

And, its finally kicked in. I am really a mom, now. A sahm (stay at home mom).
I’m the real deal.

Today, I was at Barnes and Nobles in the mall buying Isabela some books. I left after making some light conversation with the checkout lady. On the way out the door, I saw a lady in front of me. She was holding a huge purse, wearing sweats and a light jacket. She was looking very ‘casual cute.’ And, looked like she had a ton of errands to run. I thought, “mom, definitely a sahm”

And then I stepped out of myself and looked at me. Dressed in yoga pants, a tank and light jacket. Huge purse, aka diaper bag. A list of errands to run.

Definitely a mom – sahm uniform and all!

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New blog, old blog

So, if you arrived here looking for our old family blog, please click here
and bookmark the link! Please be aware that our family blog will be going private within the next 2 weeks. So, if you would like to be invited to read the blog, please comment or email me with your email address!!!

So, from now on, aliciakristina.com will always take you here. This is going to be my ‘personal blog’, so it won’t be centered as much around the comings and goings of our family. Rather, this will serve as an outlet for my creativity…whichever form it may come in!

Love!

Spring is here!

So, I have some interesting news for everyone! I think I am gonna wait til this weekend to announce it, though. hahah. And, no, I am not pregnant again, though that it would be fabulous if we were. ( NO, we are not trying for another one yet!)

anyhow, the weather is finally warm, and its wonderful to not have to bundle up at all to go outside.
Isabela has been sleeping so much better, because we do so much playing outside throughout the day. The other night, she slept 10 hours! It’s pretty much been amazing.

Isabela absolutely loves playing outside. When we are inside, I leave the doors to the deck open, and she plays on the deck with Buster. We are all so happy to be outside and play in the warm sunshine! This picture pretty much sums it up about how thrilled I am that winter is over!

Buster was scared of that stick. And here is just one more of me and hubs.

and because it wouldn’t be a blog post without pictures of Isabela, here are some of her and Buster!

So

I’m still trying to find that perfect blog template! Once I do that, I’ll be blogging away!

oh, the nerve!

so, there are going to be some changes to this blog in the near future.

Within the next 2 weeks, this blog will be a private blog. I really didn’t want to do this, but due to the actions of an individual ( who will remain anonymous), I am now forced to make my blog private.

The reason why I haven’t done so, is because I have received many emails from ‘lurkers’ who read my blog, and they have told me that they were encouraged so much by my words. Many of these lurkers are moms who have babies with food allergies and acid reflux. Most are breastfeeding mommas who landed on my blog while looking for online support. And some are people who love Jesus and landed on my blog while searching for scripture. Some are fellow bloggers who have landed on my blog and fallen in love with my family. ( I have also fallen in love with many other blogger families!).

But most importantly, I have received one or two emails from people who were looking for a relationship with Jesus. And that thought alone, the thought that I could plant a seed in just one or two people, has kept me from making this blog private.

However, the safety and privacy of my daughter and family has been compromised, and for now and for a long while, this blog will be private.

PLEASE SEND ME A COMMENT OR EMAIL IF YOU WANT TO BE ABLE TO VIEW MY BLOG!! I AM KEEPING IT PUBLIC FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS SO ALL FAMILY WHO RANDOMLY CHECK THIS BLOG WILL HAVE A CHANCE TO COMMENT WITH THEIR EMAIL. YOU CAN ALSO JUST CALL ME AND GIVE ME YOUR EMAIL. if you want to email me, click here: email me! If not, leave a comment.

however, do not fear!

I will be adding a new blog to my blogs. lol. Yes, this blog will not be private, and will allow me to be creative, be more free in my love about Jesus, and will be more representative of who I am as a woman. (other than mommy and housewife extraordinaire!). Also, I hope this blog is a way for me to continue reaching out to others, while still being able to protect my family.

click here to follow my new blog!